Xmas eve eve...

XMAS HUSTLE:
What yall doing today? Runnin to the mall? Hiding schnit from kids? Wrapping gifts? Grocery shopping for Xmas dinner?

I am not bashing today... just curious as to how you spending your day? I came to NC... Moms is at the mall. My brother is at the shooting range and I just came back from gold course. FYI leave playing golf on wet greens to the professionals. I went out with 20 golf balls, came back with 2 (and one of those I found)!!

AI:
This AI trade has me bothered! I spoke with Tawanna's girl and she was like 'hell naw the fam aint moving to Denver' ... Thats not what bothered me.. what bothered me is what the hell is that lil 5'9 98 lbs nikka gonna do in the Mile High? I know he and Melo can work well but, will Melo understand AI's presence. I mean thus far he has been the man... he did well playing with KMart, but AI is a BETTER player by far! While the experts are worried bout AI adjusting, I am worroed bout Melo.

Short story... AI and I were dating the same chick when he was at Gtown. Now mind you he had more than one so it wasnt a big deal but when we met it was comical cause HER face cracked while we were 'kool' with it. Been kool since...

Text Messaging:
What the hell? Why you having a conversation via TEXT when you could have just called me? Funny type loser tendencies!! That is what I call it...

First Love:
I got an email from the 100 BMA and attached was a press release from a non-profit organization. And you know how they are always putting a for more info contact name and number? Well.. low and behold it was my very FIRST LOVE, the INITIAL HEARTBREAKER, the ONE WHO CORRUPTED , the ONE who STARTED the 'playa' in me. What the Fawk? was my first thought... that cant be her. NO!! Gawd no.

Sidenote: We dated only 9 months. Met on Xmas at the Club dated broke up on my birthday (fawk you naysayers who smirking at me knowing dates). However, we still continued LOVING one another for two years. Lost touch and began again for a few months. In bed we were MAGIC and KAREEM, but out of the bed we were MIKE TYSON and MITCH GREEN. Needless to say - we didnt get along worth shit outside the bedroom...

We lost touch and now I see her name and a number, email, and address to where she is. What do I do? My palms began to sweat and I called my best friend. He was not home and he didnt answer the celly. I called my brother, but his vm came up. I called my other boy - no answer. I called my anti-FIRST LOVE ( a friend that did not like her) - but no answer. So I sat there... waited 10-15 minutes...

SO, like most dumb@ss moves I have made lately I called her. VOICEMAIL! Yeah.. that voice is the same. It was her... yes. It was. My heart jumped to my throat - GULP! And out of habit you hear the beep you start to speak. *DUH* Didnt wanna leave a message but I said, "Hey ... just thought....." and I couldnt stop cause she would hear it and be like who is this clown, but she prolly would pick up on my voice. (Unique sounding voice... she said it always did something to her.... go figure). I finished the message, left my number, and hung up.

I am kicking myself cause I left that message... (partly cause that @ss aint called me back yet - which may be a GREAT thing) Then.. all the people I called... started calling me back! TOO FAWKING LATE!! They all had the same questions and comments; WHY, What did I want, What if she calls back, Will I go see her (FAWK YEAH), Why do I wanna see her, etc. Anyway I am over it now after 3 days... she aint called so 'fawk it'! Well the best friend called me today and said "Did she call?" I said "NO" -- he said why you salty? I said I aint but dayum no one wants to be rejected. Then like a best friend should (trying to save my face) he said... "you know she may be on vacation and aint got the message yet" Problem with that is... he gave me HOPE that she would call.

I told him and I am telling yall.. I am going out like an old b!tch thinkin bout this broad, but FIRST LOVES got a space that is irreplacable. That is unclosable, unforgettable! So with that.... fawk it! Iont care... but if she calls -- I will let ya know!

RANDOMNESS:
1) I made it pass the limit!!

2) Still the reigning frat's MAN OF THE YEAR... take that !

3) Workin with the OLDER POPULATION can be rewarding!

4) Why is Mr. Holland's Opus one of my favorite movies!

5) Why does Bow Wow look like a taller T.I.?


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Steps out of shell...

Well I'll be gawddayum... With all this google sign in crap I cant read folks pages no more. I hate it.. uuuggghhhhh!!

Aight... let me see where do I begin? *Ignant fool in the back shouts: "Try from the beginning !!!"*

Sounds like a plan...

Well... I realized that I am not as OPEN as I once thought I could be. And it hit me right about the time I read Ms. Choc's thread about lying to the public and moving on etc. etc. Not that I have lied or told intentionally things that were not true. I simply just aint OPEN.

From the onset... I told ya I was a private nikka with issues and complexity beyond no end. Its a defense mechanism. They tell me Virgos are guarded and analytical. We like to know the WHYs and WHAT FORs. And if we dont get the answer... you are "BLOCKED FROM THIS WEBSITE" no pun intended.

Yall really wanna know about the "Kant be friends"? Well I don't have any bad words to say about anyone honestly... you just have to know that sometimes things don't work out - accepting an ending can be therapeutic. But I will say this.. she told me to kiss her @ss rather than her forehead. It actually made me laugh thinking bout the nicest (roundness, phatness, and juicyness) of 'that' @ss she spoke of!!! And really there are no hard feelings... I wish her the very best.

NOW.. on to other things -- I mentioned sometime ago about my ONE failure in life. I have been working on that ... I dont like it. And I want it fixed. * Sorry to bait you but I will tell you more as the story unfolds -- maybe!?!*

Randomness:

1) Can I say this... and I hope no one gets OFFENDED, but umm errr uhh ...

FAWK XMAS

I mean no disrespect to folks who like this holiday you greedy summab!tches, but lets be real. How long you gonna let a fat white man take credit for your VISA bill being high @ss hell? How long you gonna be a punk @ss parent and let your kids behavior be affected by a white dude in a fat suit? Seriously... think about how many times this month you said "if you not good Santa no gonna get you no toys" -- Umm more that ZERO is TOOO MANY!!!!

Half yous aint got not dayum CHIMNEY no way.. how that lie still lives I will never know! I lived in the projects in Lincon Heights and knew dayum well if "Man-Man" and 'em robbed and killed the mailman, just think what they would do to some white dude (not in a MPD uniform) with a bag of toys round midnight!?!?

2) I love the new gig, but some folks are complacent then a mofo. I know you get a hella check each week and its hard to fire ya @ss but dont complain when they give the supervisor job to an OUTSIDE person. *Ding Ding Ding* That's a hint and a half that your @ss aint producing like a supervisor. Coming in all late and taking 10 smoke breaks for 10-30 minutes each.

3) I wasn't gonna to this one but... good luck and remember to save 10% more than you presently save cause when you have the add'l responsibility it will make the transition of expenses that much easier to deal with.

4) Happy Holidays to each and everyone of yous... I wish your family good time and cheer. And if you can.. remember the homeless, less fortunate, and the ones who will get the PINK notice on the door (or RED envelope - late notice) in January cause they RENT aint paid (but they got a shinit load of toys under the tree)!!!!!

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This is a first...

You ARE right... We kannot be friends...
Be good and I wish you the best. *Kiss on the Forehead*

Just a few thoughts...

I have been swamped, at work, at home, and in life.

Work is kicking into gear now that they trust me with something real and dangerous! I have begin the unduanting task to get seasoned employees to want to stop working in silos and 'cross-train' them in other areas... talk about a MOUNTAIN. Folks with two years til retirement and rushing each day to it... hmph! I also have a project that will focus on ensuring the agency has proper allocations for '08 budget year. I am on the strategic plan team... AAArrgggghhhhh (nuff said???)

Home...well home has two parts, but Imma focus on the public side. I have been working on the condo deal and hammering out the minor stuff. I had my partners begin looking at floor plans and decor... (SIDEBAR) Dont EVER let women and men try to design ANYTHING together. They so have SO many different thoughts or perceptions as to what this thing should look like. I am thinking dorm-like, others are thinking bungalow style, and one other is thinking studio. And what blows most... is the 'studio' person wants to draw a design opinion out of a freakin hat. Ok.. time out... reality check.. We decided on a hybrid of dorm and bungelow. 'Studio' got to choose the restaurant we ate at. I love them though... they keep me 'grounded and sane'!! I am not happy with the slowness ... I think that this can move faster than the contractors say it can. SO da fawk what its kold out there.... you are being paid handsomely to work in the cold!

Also may mortgage company is doing well. I love my customers and love the satisfaction of helping people purchase their first home or refinancing to consolidate bills (or take a vacation). *Shameless plug* People if you are sending someone else's 'kid to college (i.e. paying them to rent a place), please consider buying a home. All I am saying is 'consider' it. Talk to a mortgage broker or First Time Homebuyer agency, someone... anyone who can give you insight on the affordability of a home. Its like an 'orgasm' when I get an 'approval notice' back from a lender. I dont care where you live (DC, Atl, Raleigh, Morgantown, Norwoord, wherever), you TOO can own a home.

Life is funny... one minute you are up and ready, and then you can easily be down for the count. But its how you react to the fall that matters. Do you lay and let it settle in or do you bounce up and come back for more. I have had numerous accomplishment... the highest highs you could ever have. And then again.. I have had the lowest lows (not suicidal lows, but 'dats fawked up low'). But I have one major 'failure' in my life that I just cant get over. I just cant... I have tried trust me - my best friend has had this convo with me MILLIONS of times now. Hell he brought it up in Houston at the All Star game and has plans to bring it up again in Vegas at the All Star game. *By the way... if you dont have ya room reserved yet - woooowwweeee get reaey to pay upwards of $500+ for a room on the strip* Luckily, knowing the schedule ahead of time...we locked in rooms at less than a fourth of that price. Paid for the room upfront and all... but I digress. Correct ya flaws and GROW! Continue to grow people....

Thanks...

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Tuesday...

Man I dont know what the hell is wrong with me.... I woke up late again. I think I am seriously spent. I am lookin forward to going to Australia for New Years, but I think I may need to do something before then. Where is this coming from? Why am I over spending myself?

ANSWER: Cause I like it this way.

I just needed to vent for a hot minute.
What up ... and thanks for the love in my EMAILS *evil look* !!!


Randomness:
1) If its over, what does it matter what I say about my past?
2) The Wizards suck...
3) Why it take 4 days to complete this entry?
4) ...


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Hey Hey Hey...

Guess what...



More folks reading this than I thought... Thanks for the love! Yall some nosey folks too!! *LOL* I appreciate yall coming through. I was shocked so many folks read this thing. I am siced now! *LOL* (Pause for the moment of being a bamma passes)



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Aight...



So.. what is new in the ENIGMA world. Not a dayum thing. I hate ripping and running to NC from time to time, but this past weekend I headed to Atlantic City only to be turned around and head to Charleston SC for a meeting with some investors. Yall know I be doing my real estate thing... *Baby Donald Trump... on a real low low low low level!* Anyway.. hopped a flight from AC to SC. Met over a nice meal featuring fresh crab and salmon. Talk a lot of talk and shot a lot of shnit... Grab a rental car and headed to NC thinkin that these fools were not talking good game. Thinkin - wasted money... but fun trip!



Got to the NC and spoke with my partner - he was talking jibberish ( short hand for long winded as story bout nothing). About an hour into the speak... I hear "they wanna do the deal". (Deal: Purchase 4 beachfront properties, demolish, construct a 12 unit condo joint) cha-fawking-ching! So... I dont know if yall watch NCAA Basketball, so to celebrate we (partner and attorney)headed over to the Duke/Gtown game. Who am I sitting next to? Guess...(thought a pic of Warren Buffet would appear here, but I am still learning). But yeah.. the richest mofo on the face of US soil!!! We rapping bout the game and I hit him with some BS about how I was interested in his story and how is investing style was one that most fit my personality. We chit chatted and talked throughout the game. Why did I feel BRIGHTER just by talkin to this cat. ** Step back for a moment... this man has more disposable cash than I will ever EARN in my life time, my children's lifetime, and my grand children's lifetime. ** I digresss. After the game, he slid me his business card and said to email him and he would send me some things to read. ** Yeah... Imma get me a NEW mentor!! (sorta)** Oh..player move of the YEAR: Me to Warren, "I am headed to the concession area, you want me to get you something?"


So I fly back to AC to get my car... and head home. Long @ weekend... long a$$ weekend.


Randomness:
1) When life shoot you lemons, make lemonade!
2) You can go (back) home...
3) Learn to appreciate the GOOD things, learn from the bad things, and know the difference between the two.
4) I went to happy hour with an old friend. Thanks for the reality check.
5) Xmas is almost here... dont give cause its on sale, give cause you want to.
6) Mike Vick is a fawking beast! My Skins lost again.


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