Unimaginable Thoughts

Long time...long time.

2007-03-06T09:50:00.000-05:00

I have nothing new to add... I been in a pfunk lately. Not to inspired not to enthused.

I been cleaning out a lot of closets and damage from this past year. And its a bit overwhelming. People think 'oh you back with the wife' and BAMMMMM... back to normal. No, its not that simple. You actually have to re-learn and date again. Seems weird but still necessary.

Hmmm...well I am out. Talk later.

Recap of All Star weekend...

2007-02-20T10:01:00.000-05:00

I was not with PacMan Jones and 'em ... so I didnt need any bail money.

Well.. MJ is still the mofo man.. he is the ONLY dude that make me stop and stare. Yet unlike last year... I spoke and chatted with him this time. However, a recently seperated RICH MOFO is not in one location too long. But I got my chat in and feel like a kid in the candy store.

FYI for future events... when the NFL players show up... LEAVE! Why were they shooting in... yes IN the casino. Nikkas...

I went out to Vegas with $500 to lose... and came back with $5,600 in hand! I love those slot machines and Black Jack!!!

I had the nerve to stay in theHotel (at the Mandalay Bay) which was the main hotel. Players coaches, media, and cheerleaders were in there. Did I mention the HOOOCHIES were there too! The PGDA was there too.... ooops.. I mean the Professional Gold Diggers Association was camped out in the lobby and casinos most nights.

Never the less... I had a dayum ball.

Vegas I am sure is accustomed to handling hundreds of thousands of people,but NEGROES -- they were not ready for .... I was passing out apologies cards to white folks for the way some of my ppl were acting.

Gawd awful.... I cannot beleive we STILL act like we dont belong some times. Now I was told that I shouldnt be ashamed, but maybe I am boughie or whatever, but I be dayummed if 4 niggers on an elevator gonna represent me to the 5 whites on that same elevator. Did I tell yall bout the fight at the airport in Philly?? Yeah.. cause folks got bumped off stand by by folks... AWFUL... you can give us a pass out the hood but the hood never takes LEAVE of us.

Jam Session was fun... (if you were a kid or so).
Parties were off the chain!! Celebs and groupies ( mostly guys) were all through the city. Ladies I apologize for ever calling yall groupies cause MEN are the biggest fawkin groupies - I am SURELY convinced!!!
The game while high scoring and flashy with dunks... it was pretty boring. I did however run into MJB and Christina Aguillera... both women are stunning!
I did pull a corn ball move and go to the George Wallace comedy show - and that sumbatch is funny as hell!!

All in all I had a good @ss time!!

No rrandomness... I am too tired still!!!

Preparing for ALL STAR weekend...

2007-02-08T11:20:00.000-05:00

Aight... most yall dont know I been going to this thing for the past four years... this year though -- its in VEGAS!! I got my betting money and my wardrobe...tickets for the flight, game, and activities. I got it all set up and ret to go!

Why I still feel like I am missing something?

Tag... I'm it!!

2007-02-06T18:00:00.000-05:00

I've been tagged by Choc !!

Tag: Share 5 things the blogger fam doesn't know about me.

1) I dont like strawberries...

2) I am a NICE guy.. underneath all the tough exterior, I am a warm and kind guy.

3) My father died when I was six years and I was hurt for over seven years. I blamed God and didnt fawk with Him at all. At the age of 13, I had some incident happen and I talked to Him and we came to a truce. I agreed that He did it for a reason... and He agreed to listen to me again! So we been on good terms ever since!

4) My mother still cooks breakfast and dinner for my brother and I (when we are home).

5) Since some of yall didnt know... I am married. My wife and I had some issues and were apart. I thought it was a 'good' move... some of the time apart was WELL spent, other times was 'crap'. I made some moves and did some things... she did, hmm... whatever she did. But now like one of my song goes, "We are back in stride again!" Thanks!

Now I'm supposed to tag ppl.......hmmmm GMo, GTL, Dynasty, TDD, and BKDiva.

AND I DON'T CARE IF YOU ALREADY DONE IT.......REVEAL 5 MORE THINGS :)

February 5, 2007

2007-02-05T09:07:00.000-05:00

Super Bowl or Super Bowel?
That was the worst played game in the histroy of SuperBowls. I honestly turn and watch C-Span2 for a good minute. It was about Elliot Lewis and his book about being multi-racial and his hiding of his whiteness and his blackness depending on his company. Not necessarily hiding, but FADING into the group by convenience. Anyway... I digress.

Congrats to Tony Dungy on his coaching his team to the win. Peyton won the MVP (scratching my head as to why though)...While Rhodes and Addai did all the work. These two men out hustled and outrushed the dynamic one-two punch of the Bears. My condolescenses (sp) to Lovie Smith. They may try to fire you saying you cant win the Big One, but congrats to you as well. Both coaches did a helluva job try to get their team in position to win... unfortunately- you only can have one winner.

However as black people... we will recognize TWO. Tony Dungy and Lovie Smith.

Why did ESPN in the banner have Tony Dung is the first African American coach to win Super Bowl, but in the scroller at the bottom of the screen it said Tony Dungy is the black coach to win Super Bowl. Consistancy here... just a lil people!!

Randomness:
1) The Mrs. and I hosted our first Super Bowl party in over four years... we had TOO many negroes in that house. I already scheduled Molly Maid and them to come through today to clean up. While it was great hosting and I enjoyed ya... next year, we going to someone else's house. *smile*

2) A Brother's love... nothing above it. I feel like I am crippling him, yet at times, I see his obstacles. I see him working on it and I see him struggling ot make it work. So ... I help. Is that bad? Trust I have let him fall, scrape, and get 'blasted' by trouble/life issues... but by golly if he aint trying, so I continue to help. I do blame my mother for enabling (him to rely on her) and disabling him by not allowing him to get out there earlier. But...oh well.

3) Papa Johns pizza.... yeah thats for lunch!

4) Its like Beyonce said... "I am not irreplacable".

I will not...

2007-01-31T11:12:00.000-05:00

I will not respond to such commentary.
I will not un-man-mify myself to respond and get into a petty ordeal.
I will not answer questions about the statements.
I will not rebut truths, untruths, etc.
I will not stop being a friendly person who speaks at will.
I will not stop learning and growing and being who I am.

I stepped away on or about December 9, 2006. At that point the issue was over. If ya my folks for real for real... you will step away too!

Randomness:
1) Wow... I enjoy the views to my lil bitty blog.

2) Commentary is cute when you are klean and unscaved, but when you not... you are just antagonistic.

3) Can you imagine Norv Turner coaching the 'Boys?

4) Reinvest in self... its the only guaranteed return!

5) Anyone wanna buy my lil brother? *Arrrrghhh*

*ENTER*

January 24, 2007....

2007-01-24T09:17:00.000-05:00

My President: Did ya watch that speech? This man is aight with me... even in the face of 'I fawked up and dont know what to do", he stand tall and delivers his 'best' speech to date. I dont care what your politcal affiliation is or how you feel about the President of these United States, dude handles his business. I agree and disagree with his solutions and plans, but he got a plan -- and that is a good start. He wants to get out of this Iraqi thing and not upset the Isreal/Iran all at the same time. The bamma is kool as a kukumber under the pressure. Luv him or hate him... he still OUR President!

Obama/Hillary: Its on. They are out there and on it hard. I have read this Debra Dickerson chick'blog/reports about Obama and his level of blackness. I am so hyped and ready for the rumble. Problem is.... Pelosi looked lost and spacey last night sitting there behind my boy George! John Edwards and Vlasic got a fight on their hands. And if Al gonna get in, he need to get his team in gear... did I say that I hope that Al doesnt get in it? Hmmm.... Anyway, its gonna be hot!

Ran into my ex who broke my heart: First.... Happy Birthday. I ran into her at a 100 BlackMen event. Man she looked good... I am glad I was too or it would have been disasterous. Anyway, she has a child - congrats Miss. She is shacking... and she looked good (Did I say that before?) I's married and working out some things (not necessarily bad things, but things). We spoke at length about what happened and how we both have evolved. It was a good 'healing' for the both of us. Quiet as Kept... she said I broke her heart too. We joked and laffed over drinks and acknowledged that we both had places in our heart for one another. I dont talk about my 'marriage matters' to any one but the Mrs.... and the EX respected that and offered her ear as a symbol of our once friendship. WOW...

Yes, I am spoiled: Man... every office I go to there is a caudry of women who take to me. I dont mix romance and work, but they take to me as a son, brother, or .... whatever! There are 29 people in this office and 26 are women. *dance dance* Anyway... they brought me breakfast today and are taking me to lunch. They are all nice looking women too, some older, some younger, but still WORTHY range!! *LOL* but the rule is .. "dont get your money and honey in the same spot".

Randomness:
1) Live your life... stop worrying bout me. Trust me, you got your own issues and problem than to be looking back at me and what I's doing. I got my demons and issues... and I KNOW YOU GOT YOURS. So, walk away peacefully and enjoy yours -- cause you know I am gonna handle and enjoy mine!

2) TheWizards lost.... guess we can beat the East, but the West gots the Best! Poor AI, I wish you would have gone to a East team... Yall still need a Center to compliment you and Melo. Wonder what Motumbo is doing?? Maybe you can trade for him?

3) Fawk the Tuna... whack @ss sell out. You cn handle T.O., sit his @ss in a corner and play him on Sundays. PERIOD!

4) My brother is ... I love him. Thats all Imma say.

* ENTER*

First day back...

2007-01-22T22:05:00.000-05:00

Well first let me say... GOD's helper was trying to hold me back. It snowed like a dayum beast Sunday afternoon. I was in the snow stuck on I-95 for 3 hours between DC and Richmond. But then the MAN himself said... "Boy, you need clearer roads to get back... " And from Richmond on HE opened the road up and just hit me with cold and freezing rain. So what was normally a four hour trip was turned into a seven hour journey... but by HIS hand ---> I made it!

God its good to be in my OWN bed again!!!

Aight....

Started the new assignment here in North Carolina... the office is great thus far. People are genuine and ...hmmm un-DC like! I am enjoying it... I have three task assignments - unlike the last stop I had where I sat for months until I had a meaningful project. I hate geetting momney in my bank account and all I did was show up. I like to earn my money. I dont know bout you, but if I am worth that money doing nothing -- just how much am I am worth DOING something!

Home... well the Mrs. is doing her thing. She is lookin like she miss me ... and better yet - the cooperative efforts e both are putting forth is working hella-well. If you ever think anything is wrong or needs to be addressed in ya relationships... remember this word....

"Communication" - com·mu·ni·ca·tion /kəˌmyunɪˈkeɪʃən/
Pronunciation [kuh-myoo-ni-key-shuhn] - noun
> the act or process of communicating; fact of being communicated.
> the imparting or interchange of thoughts, opinions, or information by speech, writing, or signs. > something imparted, interchanged, or transmitted.
> a document or message imparting news, views, information, etc.
> passage, or an opportunity or means of passage, between places.

Nuff said.....

Yall siced bout these two black coaches in the SuperBowl? Yeah... lets celebrate the accomplishment. Cause I am too... now tha tPeyton haad me proud when they was like "Peyton you lead the Colts to the victory" and he replied "Couch Dungy had a gameplan that we stuck to..yada yada yada". Look at that deference and that humility to let the MEDIA know that the HNIC handled this victory comeback. And poor Lovie, they shot and banged his @ss about Rex. But look at him... all proud and shnit. *Sidebar* Who the FAWK named that boy LOVIE? Do yall see Mrs. Howell from Gilligan' Island everytime they say that guy's name!!! *LOL* WOW! Just wow....

Randomness:

1) LIFE -- Live it... you will love it.

2) My godson... he has some mental issues and a learning disability. But thats fine... you know why? He is alive and can cope with them and acieve in school regardless. Did I tell yall his @ss is 6'3 and 260lbs... I think he can play college ball if he can just control his anger issues. (That's just a by-product of his mother's substance abuse when he was INSIDE her and her continued use around his as a small child)...hell if he cant play ball, he be a bouncer at the Club or something!

3) West Wing: The Series ... the entire series is on sale at Target. Wanna get me a great gift .... there is ya hint.

4) What a waste of a parent your @ss is... *SMH* Had me fooled... BIG TIME.. big big.. HUGE!

5) Summer time.... condos will be ready!!!!

*ENTER*

January 18, 2007

2007-01-18T08:05:00.000-05:00

Good morning folks...

A few things I wanna get off my chest....

1) Obama: Negro please... While I am one of the most optomistic negroes you will ever meet. I have danced on the same floor with the Clintons, hollered at the Gores, spoke with Sharpton, and debated with Jackson. I worked with Orrin Hatch, tussled in politic jargon with Specter, and funned with a few nameless ones. The world, this United States of America ... just aint ready. Mark my word, write them down, print this out... A white woman possible, but not likely. A negro ( person of color)... man if Powell couldnt pull it off what makes you think... I like this guy, he is intelligent, articulate ( for my white readers), and savvy, but he is too ill experienced. Trouble with him is that he is the anti-Hillary for most. And the issue for them both is ... they will pull from the same POOL of voters making it easy for a third person to slip right through (Edwards, Vlasik, etc.) In his limited Senate career he has iniated.... he has passed.... he has..... *thinking* what the hell has he done? Oh... wrote two books with a third on hold. Two years in the Senate and three books. Oh... yeah he did post up one piece of legislation - and McCain sent him to the lil boy corner for about a week or so. Then Mc had the nerve to publish his 'STFU lil boy' letter in the Post. WOW! Sen. Obama... ride this one out. Accept the Vice President and see how the USofA loves ya... I am not saying settle, I am saying 'learn'.

2) Work: As a black man... do you often times feel marginalized? As if the standard are set low? I completed a task for my Associate Adminstrator and this kat act like I found the cure for cancer. He hit me with a 'on the spot' award ($2,500) and accomodations. I asked this dude what the deal was... he stated that many had tried to communicate this same message in many forms but with little to no results. However, my presentation garnered no responses and everyone 'got' the concept and idea. I was struck with 'Awww' then disgust that I was working with such incompetent mofos.

3) Life: Is GREAT.... cause God is good to me. I cannot complain, nope not at all. I ran into my ex (dont know if I told yall but I ran cross my first love contact info on a press release-- and I called her). She is living life and loving it. Her life is GOOOD and I am honestly glad for her. I hated her for years because she broke my heart (shed tear), but when we spoke it was as if we were the best of friends. Cause we were when we dated. She said that she still loved me and that we would always have a place in her heart (and i co-signed to my heart as well). She had lil boy recently... I am so proud and happy for her. Her life is totally turned around and she is that upstanding woman that I was gonna live my life with (or so I thought). Anyway... we agreed NOT to meet up but to remain close 'phone' friends. * Why ? We sexed alot.... and that was the bestestest part of the relationship -- Yeah its been 15 yrs, but some things you never forget * Heres the best part though... she told me my god-son is 18 now and about to graduate college this spring. Problem is... he dont have money for college, while he has a partial scholarship to FAMU, he needs more. His mother died when he was 8 and his father aint shnit. *SMILE* I was excited to tell her that ... when I was deemed his godfather, I started a trust fund for him. When we (her and & I) lost touch I just convereted the thing to a nameless fund for one of my own children (when I had them). I told her to tell his grandmother to call me and I will have the fund turned over to him. The fund is to be dispensed over four years and it should be enough to supplement him. I am SOOO proud and happy to help him. God is good!!!

4) Real Estate: slow... and slowing... but still GOOD!!

Randomness:
a) I dont read the newspaper no more...

b) I joined yet another investment group...

c) Using people who like you is never a good thing. Life will fawk you in the end and you will never be happy.

d) She is backkkkkkkkk!!!!! NO... we are back!!!

To the ladies of Delta Sigma Theta and Alpha Kappa Alpha...

2007-01-16T10:19:00.000-05:00

January 13, 1913... the second most special day in the hearts of the NUPES!

Happy Founder's Day...

January 15, 1908... again .. the second most special day in the hearts of the NUPES!

When I learn this pic thing... Imma be real good!!

Headed back to NC...

2007-01-10T14:37:00.000-05:00

Got things to do and people to see. Mortgage business is doing well... venture in SC is jumping !! I cant tell you how happy I's bout that one... What up folks? Yall see I got a new spread for the '07. Imma make it happen and do what it do.

Some how I feel like the dayum black panther party... and (Rockwell sings) "Somebody watching me". Well I wont get in to that....

Short and Sweet for the 1-10-07...

Randomness:
1) How bout them Redskins? Chillin at Chammps the other day !

2) Is DC United really owned by two losers? WOW!!! Will they bring back Freddie Adu?

3) Real Estate.... do it!!! You never too broke to LEARN the material for sale in B&N or Borders!!!!

4) "Back in stride again... " I strayed.... and have been away - but I am back!!!!

5) If know you reading this so ... *KISS* and I love you too!!!

January 8, 2007...

2007-01-08T17:27:00.000-05:00

Its a new year a new me.... and hopefully a new you!

I trust everyone had a good new year's eve and am having a GREAT new year.

I wanna thank my folks for starting me on this Blog thing. I am finding it to be amusing and fun. Funny how WORDS mean so much to so many people. When I say stuff flippid (sp) and off the cuff or just say something that ...just dont matter - its interpreted so strangely. I will tell you what people I have dated said to me once... "Only take in 20% of what I am saying cause the other 80% is pure BULLSHNIT!" And quite frankly if you pick up on the BS and learn the commentary - you love me even more!

I am nonchalant... dont too much bother me. However when I think I have hurt someone or offended them, my manners take over. I just say I apologize... I dont dwell in the 'mad at you' moment. I accept it and move on. The quicker you learn this... the better. The longer you stay madd at me the less time we have to enjoy one another's company. So what you gonna do!?!?!

So... my initial randomness post of 2007.
1) I thought I missed you but I dont!

2) Went to Mayor Fenty's Inaguaral Ball ... very classy... too bad. Nope Imma let it all play out.

3) Did you see the Wizards last night? WOW!

4) I changed the layout...sorry if I lost the information. I will get it up there soon.

5) In 2007...dont forget the tips I spoke with you about---> save, invest, and plan for the future.

Happy Founder's Day

2007-01-05T10:51:00.000-05:00

Its been 96 years of acheivement and excellence.... Congrats Nupes!

Xmas eve eve...

2006-12-23T13:10:00.000-05:00

XMAS HUSTLE:
What yall doing today? Runnin to the mall? Hiding schnit from kids? Wrapping gifts? Grocery shopping for Xmas dinner?

I am not bashing today... just curious as to how you spending your day? I came to NC... Moms is at the mall. My brother is at the shooting range and I just came back from gold course. FYI leave playing golf on wet greens to the professionals. I went out with 20 golf balls, came back with 2 (and one of those I found)!!

AI:
This AI trade has me bothered! I spoke with Tawanna's girl and she was like 'hell naw the fam aint moving to Denver' ... Thats not what bothered me.. what bothered me is what the hell is that lil 5'9 98 lbs nikka gonna do in the Mile High? I know he and Melo can work well but, will Melo understand AI's presence. I mean thus far he has been the man... he did well playing with KMart, but AI is a BETTER player by far! While the experts are worried bout AI adjusting, I am worroed bout Melo.

Short story... AI and I were dating the same chick when he was at Gtown. Now mind you he had more than one so it wasnt a big deal but when we met it was comical cause HER face cracked while we were 'kool' with it. Been kool since...

Text Messaging:
What the hell? Why you having a conversation via TEXT when you could have just called me? Funny type loser tendencies!! That is what I call it...

First Love:
I got an email from the 100 BMA and attached was a press release from a non-profit organization. And you know how they are always putting a for more info contact name and number? Well.. low and behold it was my very FIRST LOVE, the INITIAL HEARTBREAKER, the ONE WHO CORRUPTED , the ONE who STARTED the 'playa' in me. What the Fawk? was my first thought... that cant be her. NO!! Gawd no.

Sidenote: We dated only 9 months. Met on Xmas at the Club dated broke up on my birthday (fawk you naysayers who smirking at me knowing dates). However, we still continued LOVING one another for two years. Lost touch and began again for a few months. In bed we were MAGIC and KAREEM, but out of the bed we were MIKE TYSON and MITCH GREEN. Needless to say - we didnt get along worth shit outside the bedroom...

We lost touch and now I see her name and a number, email, and address to where she is. What do I do? My palms began to sweat and I called my best friend. He was not home and he didnt answer the celly. I called my brother, but his vm came up. I called my other boy - no answer. I called my anti-FIRST LOVE ( a friend that did not like her) - but no answer. So I sat there... waited 10-15 minutes...

SO, like most dumb@ss moves I have made lately I called her. VOICEMAIL! Yeah.. that voice is the same. It was her... yes. It was. My heart jumped to my throat - GULP! And out of habit you hear the beep you start to speak. *DUH* Didnt wanna leave a message but I said, "Hey ... just thought....." and I couldnt stop cause she would hear it and be like who is this clown, but she prolly would pick up on my voice. (Unique sounding voice... she said it always did something to her.... go figure). I finished the message, left my number, and hung up.

I am kicking myself cause I left that message... (partly cause that @ss aint called me back yet - which may be a GREAT thing) Then.. all the people I called... started calling me back! TOO FAWKING LATE!! They all had the same questions and comments; WHY, What did I want, What if she calls back, Will I go see her (FAWK YEAH), Why do I wanna see her, etc. Anyway I am over it now after 3 days... she aint called so 'fawk it'! Well the best friend called me today and said "Did she call?" I said "NO" -- he said why you salty? I said I aint but dayum no one wants to be rejected. Then like a best friend should (trying to save my face) he said... "you know she may be on vacation and aint got the message yet" Problem with that is... he gave me HOPE that she would call.

I told him and I am telling yall.. I am going out like an old b!tch thinkin bout this broad, but FIRST LOVES got a space that is irreplacable. That is unclosable, unforgettable! So with that.... fawk it! Iont care... but if she calls -- I will let ya know!

RANDOMNESS:
1) I made it pass the limit!!

2) Still the reigning frat's MAN OF THE YEAR... take that !

3) Workin with the OLDER POPULATION can be rewarding!

4) Why is Mr. Holland's Opus one of my favorite movies!

5) Why does Bow Wow look like a taller T.I.?

*ENTER*

Steps out of shell...

2006-12-22T08:09:00.000-05:00

Well I'll be gawddayum... With all this google sign in crap I cant read folks pages no more. I hate it.. uuuggghhhhh!!

Aight... let me see where do I begin? *Ignant fool in the back shouts: "Try from the beginning !!!"*

Sounds like a plan...

Well... I realized that I am not as OPEN as I once thought I could be. And it hit me right about the time I read Ms. Choc's thread about lying to the public and moving on etc. etc. Not that I have lied or told intentionally things that were not true. I simply just aint OPEN.

From the onset... I told ya I was a private nikka with issues and complexity beyond no end. Its a defense mechanism. They tell me Virgos are guarded and analytical. We like to know the WHYs and WHAT FORs. And if we dont get the answer... you are "BLOCKED FROM THIS WEBSITE" no pun intended.

Yall really wanna know about the "Kant be friends"? Well I don't have any bad words to say about anyone honestly... you just have to know that sometimes things don't work out - accepting an ending can be therapeutic. But I will say this.. she told me to kiss her @ss rather than her forehead. It actually made me laugh thinking bout the nicest (roundness, phatness, and juicyness) of 'that' @ss she spoke of!!! And really there are no hard feelings... I wish her the very best.

NOW.. on to other things -- I mentioned sometime ago about my ONE failure in life. I have been working on that ... I dont like it. And I want it fixed. * Sorry to bait you but I will tell you more as the story unfolds -- maybe!?!*

Randomness:

1) Can I say this... and I hope no one gets OFFENDED, but umm errr uhh ...

FAWK XMAS

I mean no disrespect to folks who like this holiday you greedy summab!tches, but lets be real. How long you gonna let a fat white man take credit for your VISA bill being high @ss hell? How long you gonna be a punk @ss parent and let your kids behavior be affected by a white dude in a fat suit? Seriously... think about how many times this month you said "if you not good Santa no gonna get you no toys" -- Umm more that ZERO is TOOO MANY!!!!

Half yous aint got not dayum CHIMNEY no way.. how that lie still lives I will never know! I lived in the projects in Lincon Heights and knew dayum well if "Man-Man" and 'em robbed and killed the mailman, just think what they would do to some white dude (not in a MPD uniform) with a bag of toys round midnight!?!?

2) I love the new gig, but some folks are complacent then a mofo. I know you get a hella check each week and its hard to fire ya @ss but dont complain when they give the supervisor job to an OUTSIDE person. *Ding Ding Ding* That's a hint and a half that your @ss aint producing like a supervisor. Coming in all late and taking 10 smoke breaks for 10-30 minutes each.

3) I wasn't gonna to this one but... good luck and remember to save 10% more than you presently save cause when you have the add'l responsibility it will make the transition of expenses that much easier to deal with.

4) Happy Holidays to each and everyone of yous... I wish your family good time and cheer. And if you can.. remember the homeless, less fortunate, and the ones who will get the PINK notice on the door (or RED envelope - late notice) in January cause they RENT aint paid (but they got a shinit load of toys under the tree)!!!!!

*Enter*

This is a first...

2006-12-09T15:49:00.000-05:00

You ARE right... We kannot be friends...
Be good and I wish you the best. *Kiss on the Forehead*

Just a few thoughts...

2006-12-08T23:35:00.000-05:00

I have been swamped, at work, at home, and in life.

Work is kicking into gear now that they trust me with something real and dangerous! I have begin the unduanting task to get seasoned employees to want to stop working in silos and 'cross-train' them in other areas... talk about a MOUNTAIN. Folks with two years til retirement and rushing each day to it... hmph! I also have a project that will focus on ensuring the agency has proper allocations for '08 budget year. I am on the strategic plan team... AAArrgggghhhhh (nuff said???)

Home...well home has two parts, but Imma focus on the public side. I have been working on the condo deal and hammering out the minor stuff. I had my partners begin looking at floor plans and decor... (SIDEBAR) Dont EVER let women and men try to design ANYTHING together. They so have SO many different thoughts or perceptions as to what this thing should look like. I am thinking dorm-like, others are thinking bungalow style, and one other is thinking studio. And what blows most... is the 'studio' person wants to draw a design opinion out of a freakin hat. Ok.. time out... reality check.. We decided on a hybrid of dorm and bungelow. 'Studio' got to choose the restaurant we ate at. I love them though... they keep me 'grounded and sane'!! I am not happy with the slowness ... I think that this can move faster than the contractors say it can. SO da fawk what its kold out there.... you are being paid handsomely to work in the cold!

Also may mortgage company is doing well. I love my customers and love the satisfaction of helping people purchase their first home or refinancing to consolidate bills (or take a vacation). *Shameless plug* People if you are sending someone else's 'kid to college (i.e. paying them to rent a place), please consider buying a home. All I am saying is 'consider' it. Talk to a mortgage broker or First Time Homebuyer agency, someone... anyone who can give you insight on the affordability of a home. Its like an 'orgasm' when I get an 'approval notice' back from a lender. I dont care where you live (DC, Atl, Raleigh, Morgantown, Norwoord, wherever), you TOO can own a home.

Life is funny... one minute you are up and ready, and then you can easily be down for the count. But its how you react to the fall that matters. Do you lay and let it settle in or do you bounce up and come back for more. I have had numerous accomplishment... the highest highs you could ever have. And then again.. I have had the lowest lows (not suicidal lows, but 'dats fawked up low'). But I have one major 'failure' in my life that I just cant get over. I just cant... I have tried trust me - my best friend has had this convo with me MILLIONS of times now. Hell he brought it up in Houston at the All Star game and has plans to bring it up again in Vegas at the All Star game. *By the way... if you dont have ya room reserved yet - woooowwweeee get reaey to pay upwards of $500+ for a room on the strip* Luckily, knowing the schedule ahead of time...we locked in rooms at less than a fourth of that price. Paid for the room upfront and all... but I digress. Correct ya flaws and GROW! Continue to grow people....

Thanks...

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Tuesday...

2006-12-05T10:50:00.000-05:00

Man I dont know what the hell is wrong with me.... I woke up late again. I think I am seriously spent. I am lookin forward to going to Australia for New Years, but I think I may need to do something before then. Where is this coming from? Why am I over spending myself?

ANSWER: Cause I like it this way.

I just needed to vent for a hot minute.
What up ... and thanks for the love in my EMAILS *evil look* !!!

Randomness:
1) If its over, what does it matter what I say about my past?
2) The Wizards suck...
3) Why it take 4 days to complete this entry?
4) ...

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Hey Hey Hey...

2006-12-04T12:02:00.000-05:00

Guess what...

More folks reading this than I thought... Thanks for the love! Yall some nosey folks too!! *LOL* I appreciate yall coming through. I was shocked so many folks read this thing. I am siced now! *LOL* (Pause for the moment of being a bamma passes)

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Aight...

So.. what is new in the ENIGMA world. Not a dayum thing. I hate ripping and running to NC from time to time, but this past weekend I headed to Atlantic City only to be turned around and head to Charleston SC for a meeting with some investors. Yall know I be doing my real estate thing... *Baby Donald Trump... on a real low low low low level!* Anyway.. hopped a flight from AC to SC. Met over a nice meal featuring fresh crab and salmon. Talk a lot of talk and shot a lot of shnit... Grab a rental car and headed to NC thinkin that these fools were not talking good game. Thinkin - wasted money... but fun trip!

Got to the NC and spoke with my partner - he was talking jibberish ( short hand for long winded as story bout nothing). About an hour into the speak... I hear "they wanna do the deal". (Deal: Purchase 4 beachfront properties, demolish, construct a 12 unit condo joint) cha-fawking-ching! So... I dont know if yall watch NCAA Basketball, so to celebrate we (partner and attorney)headed over to the Duke/Gtown game. Who am I sitting next to? Guess...(thought a pic of Warren Buffet would appear here, but I am still learning). But yeah.. the richest mofo on the face of US soil!!! We rapping bout the game and I hit him with some BS about how I was interested in his story and how is investing style was one that most fit my personality. We chit chatted and talked throughout the game. Why did I feel BRIGHTER just by talkin to this cat. ** Step back for a moment... this man has more disposable cash than I will ever EARN in my life time, my children's lifetime, and my grand children's lifetime. ** I digresss. After the game, he slid me his business card and said to email him and he would send me some things to read. ** Yeah... Imma get me a NEW mentor!! (sorta)** Oh..player move of the YEAR: Me to Warren, "I am headed to the concession area, you want me to get you something?"

So I fly back to AC to get my car... and head home. Long @ weekend... long a$$ weekend.

Randomness:
1) When life shoot you lemons, make lemonade!
2) You can go (back) home...
3) Learn to appreciate the GOOD things, learn from the bad things, and know the difference between the two.
4) I went to happy hour with an old friend. Thanks for the reality check.
5) Xmas is almost here... dont give cause its on sale, give cause you want to.
6) Mike Vick is a fawking beast! My Skins lost again.

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What I am thankful for...

2006-11-21T11:35:00.000-05:00

LIFE in general... often times folks get caught up in BULLSHNIT! PS3, Dancing Elmos, 'chasin the $$$', etc but sometimes, you have to stand down and WATCH THE TREES GROW!!

God gives us 'breath' every morning and we never (yeah whatever you bible thumpers 'i know you do it all the time' SURE!....) say THANKS. People pray for stuff all the time... but as Joyce Meyers http://www.joycemeyer.com states: "sometime you need to just say "Thank you". Just say THANKS some time.... I have had a good year thus far and I cant think of where any of this would lead me if I aint ask "Lord....where you taking me?" I aint gonna make this religiousy or nothing,but for real... this year... just say THANKS!

Randomness:
1) What you do with yourself that leaves an impression on others is what you will be JUDGED by.
2) I missed a party this past weekend due to my indecisiveness.
3) Kool breeze... *keep blowing... cause I keep thinking*
4) Procrastination is gonna be the death of me... but hell if I am late to my 'death', I may gain a few more minutes! What ya think?
5) Shnit happens...
6) When life disappoints you the most... remember the good times you had and begin to make new ones!

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PS: Karl Thomas said it best.... "I wish I never met her"

OK OK OK ..

2006-11-15T17:24:00.000-05:00

I know.. I suck! I forgot to BLOG and havent been back in a minute. Told ya I am learning... leave me alone! *LOL*

Ladies... Love and hugs!

Fellas... yall get *DAPS*

New week...new time... new day...

2006-11-13T08:31:00.000-05:00

Hey folks... its been about a week or so since I last posted. I was in training here at work. I have not forgotten nor have I not missed ya!

Thanks for the ING info... I am really gonna get on that joint for real!

I wanna thank that kool breeze for being... that kool breeze.
I am tired and sleepy... and I think my life is boring as hell compared to some of the other blogs I have read. Or maybe I am not that 'open'... however I do appreciate and enjoy the feedback and reading others blogs. Yall inspire me!

Check me out later today for a new entry...

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Quick question...

2006-11-02T12:06:00.000-05:00

Someone tell me about ING please?

Also... I need to roll some money over into a new Retirement plan any suggestions?

Hey ... you hear me? Thanks for coming by...

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Think on it...

2006-11-02T10:51:00.000-05:00

Ross-Rachel Dating….

I can’t do it. I thought I could, but I can’t. AM I selfish… am I real…. Or I just ‘black’. I am being honest here. You know how black folks are… if you go out once or twice or you even *smash* even though you have not committed to one another, you still kinda don’t want no one else dating or ‘hitting’. Black folks…we Monica-Chandler date. It’s like boom... me and you – no titles, but …we dating/fawking and no dating other people. The Ross-Rachel thing is not for me – but I will continue to try for it may be the best for the both of us.

Whats Ross-Rachel dating? That is where you both date other people but still have ties to one another that wont allow you to commit to another person for you are wanting to be with the other but dating folks til you two make up your mind that you want to be together. ----- > Yes I am a black man from the 70’s who watches Friends. I watched Will & Grace too! Same something smart… *mean mugging*

What is it about that Kool Breeze?

It wakes me up in the middle of the night wanting to let it in…
It wakes me up in the morning texting like no end…
It makes me madd in one instance and joyful the next…
And I aint ever gonna tell you bout the madd longlasting sex.
Mean mugging and ignoring me only turned me on…
Holding that breeze all morning long.
Fuak what you heard that breeze came along too fast…
But its nothing like sleeping spooning behind that ***!!!
Don’t get me wrong the body is only 2% of the fascination…
The 98% is all mental spiritual and emotional migration.

I hold the kool breeze in my mind for hours. Thinking, longing to send her candy, card, and flowers. But other cornballs have done the same. I am not like the others… I am more than a name.

NCCU Homecoming – catch me if you can

Friday, November 3, 2006Legacy Gala and Concert
Durham Marriott at the Civic Center & The Carolina TheatreLegacy Gala: 6:30 p.m. Concert: 9 p.m.Price: $150.00 (includes Dinner, Concert, and Alumni & Friends post-concert party)
Saturday, November 4 Homecoming Game: NCCU vs. Johnson C. Smith - O’Kelly-Riddick Stadium 1:30 p.m.
Classes of 80s and 90s Cabaret - Sheraton Imperial Hotel 8 p.m. For more information
Sunday, November 5 Shepard Society Jazz Brunch - Marriott Hotel Downtown 10 a.m. [Invitation Only – how did I ever get a ticket!!! ]

Randomness:
1) I love your *KISSES*
2) Don’t let the world ruin your joy. Your day is coming… joy is just around the corner.
3) Life Membership in a fraternity…. WTF?
4) Why the dayum AC aint working in the office. Its freaking HOT in here!!!
5) Her boobs are sitting pretty. Too bad her face aint!
6) DC Mean… I shoved a dude today, but don’t worry... he was in a wheel chair and needed help up on to the curb!

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Getting "DC Mean"…

2006-11-01T14:42:00.000-05:00

Gawd…. I am getting mean again. I was a mean street thug nikka from North East DC (Lincoln Heights/ 58th Street area), then, I grew up. I moved to NC and got educated and more so countrified. I learned and respected the joy of life. I learned that life is not a rush… and sometimes you have to stop and BREATHE. You see… at 5pm, I don’t run for the train. I don’t hurry along and rush down the elevator/escalator. I stroll (as one lady put it). I move along with the crowd, but I am chill with myne. I just got my countryness on and enjoying my life… But the more and more I ride the train and see stupid shhit, the more I get madd. I get frustrated with folks and their lack of motivation. There CONTENTMENT with mediocrity. Da hell…

Personality traits… are these things that you CHOOSE to accept or are they something that you develop? Who da hell chooses to be whack? Mediocre? Sub-par?

Imma have a drink tonight…. I am going to M&S downtown on 13th Street. Join me if you like…

Randomness:
1) I am not Kyle Barker, I am Overton.
2) I don’t get hyped over fine wine… give me a glass of water – its your COMPANY that I enjoy.
3) Extra… Extra…..Extra.
4) Ready for the weekend.
5) Don’t let them steal your joy…
6) When you first thought is always negative, what are others to think?

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What a day... what a day.

2006-10-31T11:59:00.000-05:00

Let me tell youbout my fiasco and how GOD dont like ugly.

I left out to work yesterday and left my BADGE in my car. If you work for the govt, you know that is 'death' dayum near trying to get in the building without it. Plus my metro-pass was in there too...

I got to work and placed my car keys n my desk. Aight.. at 5:30pm, I am ready to roll - so I bounced. I am on the train reading "QBQ" (a very good book and quick read) when I noticed this MEDUSA looking chick reading a book as well. It was titled, "Cooking for One". I burst out laffing and embarrassing like. The mere thought was overwhelmingly funny. Had she been FINE or remotely kute, the thought of "hmmm..single!" would have been on my mind, but instead.. "gosh you are ugly and of course you have NO ONE else to cook for" was the evil thought that I had. Funny thing though.. a guy across from me was lookin at me and I 'looked' toward her book.. and HE too bust out laffing. **So see... I aint the only heathen in the world ** So lookin at him laffin and me still bursting.... tears are forming and I cant take it no more... so I laugh again. It was too funny...

I get to Shaw Metro and i get off the train and guess what... my faking KEYS are in my desk at work. (God working #1). I call my mom's (say something about me 'calling mommy' and I will slap ya) and tell her I need a ride back to work but remember... I dont have my badge. So I am madd and I look at my car like 'why are your doors locked?' and i say "DAYUM!" -- and I noticed my doors were in fact unlocked (God working #2). So I reach in and get my badge (tah-dah and $10 I had stashed in the glove box). Calls mom back and tell her nevermind I can get back on the train and go back on my own to not inconvenience her. I get on the train and guess what..another ugly chick reading some book about romance (God working #3) I keep my thoughts klean and I move seats! I get to work... and since i work in a sexure building in a secure office with security all around, I begin to worry... dayummit is this badge 24.7 access. (God working #4), my co-worker is coming out as I am going in.. so I get in to the office and get my keys.

My Office Director is there working late and I let her know I was coming through not to startle her. She said she was about to leave and that she would walk out with me. (God working #5) At this point she asked me (since I am the new guy), am I getting what she is trying to say ** I am working with some co-workers on a project and she (OD) and I are the only two understanding what she wants done ** I told her yes and she immediately said ... "You lead the project then please". I said, respectfully "NO... I will work within the group but it seemed undercutting to take the lead from my supervisor and place ME (new guy) on the lead. " She said i respect that... and its commendable, 'but you are the lead.'

I get back on the subway to head home, tired and releived... and again (God working #6) there was an ugly guy with a bangin girl (Seal and Heidi Klum/Flavor Flav and Beautuful types)... I held my breath and thought - Stop Judging people by their outerlyings.

I get home... and all is well, but I know one dayum thing for sure -- UGLY PEOPLE need love too (... so who's gonna love me?)

Randomness:
1) There is someone for everyone
2) God dont like ugly...
3) I want her to 'ride me til I fall asleep'
4) Explain to me ... a 'dining experience'!!
5) If I had a dollar for every yard Clinton Portis rushed for.... I'd be broke.
6) Fantast Football is not going well for me this year.
7) NCCU Homecoming, AK Chapter celebrates its 75th Kappaversary, and God is good.

Things I had to re-learn bout the Urrree-ah

2006-10-30T08:17:00.000-05:00

DC EBONICS DICTIONARY:

JAH, JAI, JI - short for saying "jive", means "kinda/sorta" or "very much" depending on emphasis: "She is jah phat"

CHILL MODE - calm, collected: "After school, I just be on chill mode, dawg"

LUNCHING - joking around, acting foolishly: "During my free periods, we just be walking around or straight lunching, cuz we be bored"

GUMP - a nerd and/or wimp: "I dared him to touch her butt, but he a gump"

JONING - making fun of another person: "Did u see that dude's shape-up? They was joning at the lunch table all period"

BUN - a pretty girl or attractive guy: "I was looking at you sister yesterday, and I didn't realize how much of a bun she is"

BUNNED UP-in a relationship, dating, can also be a negative comment: "He don't be coming around no more, he all bunned up now"

YOUNG, JO - equivalent to "son" or "kid" in NY; similar to "yo" in Baltimore; : "Young, I'm sick of school" or "Chill out jo...it ain`t even that serious"

YOUNGIN -same as YOUNG, can be used in the plural: "Them youngins over there are a bunch of gumps"

SHAWTY, SHAWT- means shorty which refers to a girl or woman: "Shawty phat" or "Jo shawt, why you lunching"

BLOWN - very upset/disappointed: "I was blown when she told me that"

SHAKIN' OUT-hustling on the corners, drug dealing: "Jo, he be shakin' out down on D Street with them dudes"

SMASH - have sexual intercourse: "I'm jai blown cuz I went over her house, and her moms was there, so I couldn't smash"

DAWGNUTS, DOGGPOUND - close friend, my boy: "Yeah I know Mike. We went to Jr High together. That's my dawgnuts"

SON-SON - same as "dawgnuts" and "doggpound", but normally someone younger: "Young, don't talk about Jason. That's my son-son"

SHORT - unfortunate, out of luck, in a bad situation: "I can't give you a ride, young. Either ask Chris or you short" or "If I fail this class, I'm short" or "Jo, you short son"

BAMMA - a person who's not trendy or cool, a seriously negative diss: "Look at his shape-up and his beat-up Pro Wings. He's such a bamma" or "I'ma hurt dem bammas"

CARRY - to disrespect someone: "He tried to holla at her, but she carried him and walked away" or "Young, you got straight carried"

PUNISH - to win handily; means aggressive sexual intercourse when referred to girls: "When I see shawty tonight, I'ma punish it" or "Young'in got punished in that fight"

GET YOUR MAN- highly successful with girls, in sports or a competitive situation: "Young got his man last night in the game" or "I got my man at the party", I got 5 numbers"

NO BULL, BULLSH*T, B-SH*T- to mean something truthful; equivalent to "I'm telling the truth": "Man, that's exactly what happened. No bull"

BOJANGLIN` - old school term that means playing around to the point where it is detrimental: "He real smart, but he always be bojanglin`, that's why he failed math"

SLAM - directly, to the point

STEAL - to punch, assault someone: "Young, if u don't get out my face, I`ma steal u slam in ur jaw" or "Young got stole"

KIRK - to get very mad, lose control: "If the teacher wasn't there, he woulda kirked out on that dude" or "He broke up with her and shawty kirked out"

SICED - to be excited, proud; pumped up: "He was so siced when he found out he got an A on his test" or "I'ma get him all siced up by telling him his girl is cheating"

PRESSED - to be annoying, annoyingly persistent, conceited: "He's so pressed to show his new car; I can't stand him" or "Girl he keep trying to holla, he all pressed"

CAT, CATS - a term for a guy or bunch of guys; an old school seriously negative diss: "Them cats down the block wanna run some ball with us" or "That dude is cat"

TOE UP â€“ means "tore up", usually refers to manner of dress or not looking good: "Oh-my-god, she is toe up...I don't know why she don't git her hair done"

DC PRONUNCIATIONS:

MARYLAND - mur-lin
CARROLL - currl
JOINT - joan-t
JONING - joan-in
EVERYBODY - urry-by
CHILLING - chell-en
BROTHER - bru-vah
BREAKFAST- breh-fess
SOUTHEAST - souf-eess
AREA -urrree-ah
SATURDAY - sir-day
PARTY - pohh-tee
MCDONALDS -muhk-donnels
CARRY- curr-ee
BARRY FARMS (projects) -burree-fahms
PG PLAZA (a mall) -pg plahhhh za
OH MY GOODNESS -o mah gooooo ness
OH MY GOD -o mah gaw

The DC Metro Area is made up of the District of Columbia, Prince George's County, Montgomery County and Northern Virginia. Now you know the inspiration behind Martin Lawrence and his Sheneneh Jenkins character and why she spoke the way she did. Martin is from the DC area out in Maryland or Mur-lin.

Question....

2006-10-27T09:29:00.000-05:00

I have been reading plenty of responses and trying to reciprocate the love, but what is the best way to maintain and read others' blogs. I mean folks are writing great things and very interesting topics that I would appreciate continuing to read.

Also... who is/are the BLOGologist/s? I mean the one who can show me the ins and outs and tricks of blogging? I come humble and ready to learn.

Randomness:
None today... I got plans!

2006-10-26T08:58:00.000-05:00

My Stalker story…

Well I came in yesterday and I had a pack of donuts on my desk. I was like “who da fauk”. She came sashe’ing round the corner with this big @ss ‘I did it’ smile on her face. I gave her back the donuts and claimed health issues. I gave my office buddy a look as if ‘get this b!tch’. She stepped in for me and ran interference.

So… the day went on and I was perplexed. I have had internet stalkers, real life stalkers, and imaginary stalkers, but never a work-place stalker. I took it upon my self to holler at this broad about this situation. I went to her office and I asked could I holler at her for a minute. She got this fawkin kool-aid grin as if I was bout to give her the bo-zack. NOT! I explained that in 1991 I dated this fine mofo name “T”. She was the hottest chick in the building and my monkey dunk @ss snagged her one day at the copy center. We (T and I) dated about nine months actually… but it seemed like years basaed on the ‘drama’ that followed the break up.

When we were together…most people knew it. But when we broke up… EVERYONE knew it. I was getting hit on my every female who hated her and every female who liked her but wanted to get at me (cause for some reason if one want you… they all want you, but when you single NO one wants you - da hell is that about. But that’s another story). Anyway... the break up was bad cause she wanted to be with me and I wanted it over, then when I came around to wanted her back, she aint want me. That went on for months. Fast foward to today (yesterday) I told her that that experience jaded me from dating or being interested in workplace romances. While I was flattered by her gesture, I think that she should not do ‘things’ that could be misinterpreted by me or others.

SIDENOTE: (Stole the sidenote thing from Dynasty)… When you tell someone you are married or have an s/o – often times they don’t get the picture. You have to actually say NO I AM NOT INTERESTED and even then…. Well you know what the issues are here! I don’t think she was gonna give a dang, in my *Flava Flav voice* she was on ya boy Flav!

Back to the story… she said she respected that and played it like she was hitting on me. *I fueled the fire* I said... ‘why not?’ winked and laffed it off. She stated that she didn’t mean to give me the wrong impression and that she didn’t want to make me feel ‘pressured’ (I liked to died laffing). Without a doubt… to ease her pain or my perceive pain she was going thru – I told her that if we aint work together, I was 10 yr younger, lived in Manassas, and like salad – her and I could be a couple that the world would envy. She smiled and felt better I hope. I told her we have to do lunch one day so she can tell me about her job and her role in the organization.

NO I am not leading her on… I kept it professional and made her feel ‘important’ workwise. Its all about managing people. I happen to be a ‘great’ manager of people and personalities. Trust me on this one… however, I do find that my personality ‘draws’ a great deal of attention and unwanted (and surprisingly to me) attraction from women. My ex said its cause I am charming and naïve at times to my ‘aura’. But what the hell she know…

Randomness:
1) Office fans are kool… until the owner farts.
2) Hazelnut coffee is oh so good!
3) This weekend… I am having wake up sex (I hope)
4) Drinks with an old friend would be nice. Specially cause her lips are umm umm good to look at.
5) Yall lookin for a kool breeze…STOP. You got to get your own!
6) Condaleeze Rice is hot in so many non-physcial ways.

End of the day...

2006-10-25T15:44:00.000-05:00

Its hump day ... I am going for drinks tonight after work with some colleagues. I been doing this Happy Hour thing a while now and I am starting to think that this is the norm. Maybe I need kids or a 'tracker' to bring me home. I dont anything spectacular to say today, but I am thinkin bout something to put on here - but I dont wanna give too much too soon too fast. Ladies call it celibacy... men call it holding out.

Why do women feel the need to 'hold out' or claim celibacy? Is this some BS that they have convinced themselves of? Cause I, me, myself personally dont beleive in it. I think and KNOW that women are not celibate/celibant (sp)... they just holding out til they find "that" guy they deem worthy of the loving. Fellas I know yall know what I am talkin bout... and ladies you know I am telling the truth. Like that female, BOOTZ from Flavor of Love. She was celibate but now she home... she banging a friend of mine. Anywho...

Kool Breeze...
I got a story... the breeeze came my way today. It was not as kool as it normally was... matter fact it was heated. But like New Edition said, "Kan You Stand the Rain?" I can... and I will. This Kool Breeze is the best breeze I have felt in a long time... But Imma let yall speculate and let the perception RUN-A-MUCK.

Aint no way Imma talk about this breeze everyday, but when its good.... man oh man...

Randomness:
1) Ambitious people are daydreamers.
2) I dont drink THAT much.
3) Trust me.... are words are of the devil.
4) *From Royce's Daughter* Routines are tale tale signs of debils work.
5) Chick at my job... is a stalker for real! *Tell ya tomorrow*
6) Thank you for trying...

Adios

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Another day....

2006-10-24T13:00:00.000-05:00

I am boring…. I read other people’s blogs and I have no life. I read a guy from Ireland’s board and he is going through a mid-life career change and he was excited about it. Then I read a young lady from California’s board and she was breaking up with her girlfriend due to lovers’ spat and she was conflicted with her lesbianic issues. And sit here worried about my dayum Redskins losing, why Madden ’07 wont let me do what I did on Madden ’06, and what I am going to wear to work in the morning. Guess I need to be a lil less selfish.

So... let me tell you about that kool breeze. Can you imagine discussing politics with Obama, humanity with Mother Theresa, or the black man’s plight with Malcolm X. Or better yet... imagine discussing poetry with Maya of Nikki…. Imagine picking up a book and enjoying reading. That’s that kool breeze.

My life is a whirlwind. I keep ya guessing and reveal a lil .. it’s a puzzle. Its like an … ENIGMA?

Word of the day:
Enigma (E‧nig‧ma) 1..a puzzling or inexplicable occurrence or situation: His disappearance is an enigma that has given rise to much speculation. 2. a person of puzzling or contradictory character: To me he has always been an enigma, one minute completely insensitive, the next moved to tears. 3. a saying, question, picture, etc., containing a hidden meaning; riddle. 4. (initial capital letter ) a German-built enciphering machine developed for commercial use in the early 1920s and later adapted and appropriated by German and other Axis powers for military use through World War II.

No.. not too many people get close enough to see it, but I do live just like you, act like you, care like you, and even love like you do. My advice to you is to stop seeking… and live it. Oh… what a feeling (kudos to Toyota). But the problem with most folks is that you spend so much timing trying to figure it out, you never see the end product and the beauty that it brings. I am not a care or the Pythagoras theorem… I am human. I am simple… I am ME.

Did I tell you bout that kool breeze…

Randomness:
1) Da hell was my wake up Text?
2) Why she come by my desk everyday ….does she want me? Am I arrogant?
3) If hazelnut coffee wasn’t so good… why they always OUT of it.
4) The Metro in DC is da debil.
5) Lunch will be interesting.

2006-10-23T10:38:00.000-05:00

Words of the day:
Perception: 1. the act or faculty of apprehending by means of the senses or of the mind; cognition; understanding. 2. immediate or intuitive recognition or appreciation, as of moral, psychological, or aesthetic qualities; insight; intuition; discernment: an artist of rare perception.
3. the result or product of perceiving, as distinguished from the act of perceiving; percept.

Reality: 1. the state or quality of being real. 2. resemblance to what is real. 3. a real thing or fact.

Speculation: 1. the contemplation or consideration of some subject: to engage in speculation on humanity's ultimate destiny. 2. a single instance or process of consideration. 3. a conclusion or opinion reached by such contemplation: These speculations are impossible to verify.

My weekend:

1) Friends don’t let friends dial drunk
2) Long drives are soothing to the soul
3) People will do dumb shnit to get what they want
4) Talks with you are tranquil
5) Reading others people’s blog just let me know how boring I really am!

Randomness:
Yall are funny… stop reading too deep into random conversations.
Yes she is HOTTT….and I like her personality.
Rachel Ray is a stunning woman.
Playing Madden 07 til 2am AINT good for nothing but making you tired as hell and late for work.
Remember the past, live in the present, and make your future.

Four things....

2006-10-20T09:53:00.000-05:00

Four Things About Me...

Having nothing else to post, I swiped this from someone else's blog.

ENJOY!!!

Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Short Order Cook
2. Mortgage Consultant
3. Project Manager
4. Financial Analyst

Four nicknames I've been given:
1. Tony
2. Jeff
3. Khaotic
4. "Doc"

Four movies I would watch over and over:
1. Grease
2. Remember the Titans
3. Boomerang
4. Mr. Holland's Opus

Four places I have lived:
1. Washington, DC
2. Largo, MD
3. Durham, NC
4. Chapel Hill, NC

Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. HOUSE
2. Friends
3. Grey's Anatomy
4. CSI (The original)

Four places I have been on vacation:
1. Mexico (a few places there)
2. Bahamas
3. Vegas
4. Brazil

Four people I could NOT live without:
1. Lord and Saviour
2. My brother
3. My best friends
4. My grandmother

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Pork Chops
2. Crabs
3. Sushi
4. Broccoli (did I spell that right)

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. With her
2. Home
3. Washington DC
4. Vegas

Four people I'm tagging:
1. No one (cause I dont know how to tag)
2.
3.
4.

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Its almost the weekend...

2006-10-19T09:31:00.000-05:00

LIFE:
It’s a new day... a new beginning. What is life really about? Is it about finishing first? Last? Somewhere in the middle? Hell what’s the prize? Is it right or moral to feel so competitive. What really are we seeking in life?

Are you happy?
Are you sad?
Are you doing what you can to make your life better?
What about someone else’s?
Is timing everything? Or just some shnit they say to make you feel better bout something that aint go your way?

You know what I hate most… when people say “ ____________ is good. It builds character.” Put any word you want, adversity, rejection, etc in the blank. Where they read that shnit at? And who wrote that mess? I bet it was not Harvard or Rhode Scholar.

A poem….
The cool breeze came into my life and set me back.
Had me thinking bout this and that.
Why did it make me feel this way.
Is it the smell or the words it say
I am no Common, TuPac or Biggie
Why is my name nor pic in your siggie?
I think of you and want to touch
Why are you on my mind so much.
But just like the breeze you are gone…
Wondering what the fawks going on.

*I aint no artist….I am just putting down words.*

Randomness:
Romeo Chips: I discovered these things lsat night on the train home. Dayum they good!!!

Explain to me talking on the phone all nite. What da hell you saying that last that long? I miss, I want you, wish you were here? Why not get the fawk out of the house and go over there?

Happy Hour was good….drinks were flowing. White folks are crazy but they keep on po’ing! Its hard not to drink when they tossin round those (credit) cards.

PERSONAL MOMENT:
I moved back to DC on October 2, 2006 to take a job here. I was in North Carolina for a number of years and now its time to be home. I enjoyed my time and prolly will miss it. I miss the Frat and my Executive Board position. Being up here it’s hard to maintain, but they call me everyday wanting to hear my opinion on an item or matter. When are our undergrad gonna learn that the WOOD aint always good. It serves a purpose, but that purpose is long lost. I never learned nothing with my @ss in the red. Education and bonding occurs in the head. I own businesses and property throughout the state …. DC is different and I gotta learn her again. Gotta think on if I am gonna evict my tenants… I like my brownstone. Its three-stories high with a beautiful view of the city and the street! I am living at my mom’s house in my room I grew up in and it feels real good – for now!! I am not in a rush. I got 23 more months of rotations, so I cant settle to fast. But dayum aint nothing like mom’s home cooking!!

*Enter*

Wednesday 10/18/06

2006-10-18T08:25:00.000-05:00

I am in a mood today… a mood of “WTF”. I am in total control of self at all times. That is what makes me the ENIGMA that I am. I don’t allow others actions to sway me one way or the other, but last night was different.

I recalled something… that has broken my mood a bit. Its called: The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change,

the courage to change the things I can,

and the wisdom to know the difference

All day today…. I’m gonna come back throughout the day leaving a TIME and a THOUGHT. Hopefully, my day will get better. I hope yours does too!!

9:15am: “I hope ‘dinner’ was good cause it sure made my stomach hurt!

* Enter*

10:15am: "Gotdizzamm... Why is it so blasted hot? The AC busted and I need a break. If I smoked, I would go downstairs."

*Enter*

11:10am: "Do you miss me?"

*Enter*

1:25pm: "I am spoiled" Are you serious? No I am not .. not really. I just dont play games. Lunch was good. I went to Au Bon Pain (or whatever it is) and lunch sucked. Never eat there if you dont like celery, onions, lettuce, tomatoes, squash, and other shnit that go crunch when you bite into it.

*Enter*

3pm: Freaking email is the debbil!!! Define 'date'? Wow... its hot as blue blazes here. I wonder if its the weather or her!! I dont know...either way she on my mind.

*Enter*

3:41pm: I got this imaage in my head... WOW. Fawking lady in my office, sexy thick & kute, keep feeding my donuts and shnit. I just told her I lost 30+ lbs and I wanted to keep it off. I got a new 'sexy' with me. And I wanna keep it. Financial management should not be so freakign hard. How this 'person' gonna be madd at me cause I invited my 'Class' to Happy Hour and didnt invite her... well she aint in my class ya know.

*Enter*

4:30pm: Hearin it... seein it..... doing it. Demands are on me, but there is no compromise. WOW. Are you serious....

*Enter*

4:51pm: Spoiled is not the word for it... I dont know what it is, but I will get to it for sure. Did yall see the Redskins lose? I am watching a press conference now and its like "its not my fault". Well whos fault is it?? I had a ball at the party this weekend...good food..fun and friends. I am excited that folks are reading my blog... and more excited that you are commenting. The metro-rail in DC is the best in the world. I live like 7minutes from it... and I got a 16minute ride. Its wonderful. Barriers are only what you make them...if you want it to be in the way - it will. I learned during my time online ... "Mind over matter. If you dont mind, that shnit dont matter" Get it done! New people... new things... I think I am going to buy me something today. Last time I was like this... I bought a 54in TV and 2 rounds of drinks at Chili's. Thank gawd there is no Best Buy nor Chili's around. But there is a SHARPER IMAGE around here. Call me back.... I am still at work.

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I tag whoever is bored out of their minds and in need of something to write about:

2006-10-17T10:57:00.000-05:00

1.WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR EX IF YOU COULD? Da hell? Do you walk backwards? Do you sleep backwards… then why go BACKWARDS?!
2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Blue slack, white shirt, and a blue, pink, and white tie.
3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR BLOG ROLL*? I don’t have one…
4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR BLOG ROLL? I don’t have a blog roll.
5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR BLOG ROLL DO YOU KNOW/HAVE YOU MET IN REAL LIFE? I don’t have a blog roll
6. HAVE YOU EVER PLAYED ANY SPORTS? Football, Wretling and track in high school. Football in college.
7. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE? Four
8. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS? Hell to the yeah
9. DO YOU MAKE OVER 40K A YEAR? Why? Do you? Then add your shnit to myne and we will be comfortable.
10. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE? I got many already… so no need to add more!
11. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX? Are you stupid? I would make out with a lesbian though!!
12. WHAT IS YOUR MOTHER'S NAME? Carolyn
13. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BDAY? Sat in the house, watched a lil TV, and chilled. I love my BY MYSELF TIME! You gotta learn to appreciate it.
14. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE? Manurfacture’s choice
15. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP? 6:20am or so…
16.WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO? Took a friend to the airport.
17. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR BLOG ROLL LIST? I don’t have a blog roll list thingy.!18. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YER HAIR PULLED? I don’t have much… but I love pulling hair!
19. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO? Touch her again…
20. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM? This morning…
21. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS? YES.
22. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF? Nothing… its what makes me ME!!
23. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT? Give 10% to the church, 30% to the GOVT (taxes), divide up 20% amongst family and friends, and whats left I will… buy more real estate or use it as investment collateral.
HAVE YOU EVER READ THE BLOGGER NEWS PAGE? Whats that? NO!
26. LAST PERSON YOU CALLED? *SSHHHHHHH* I can tell you that…
27. LAST THING YOU ATE? Donuts… I know!!
28. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH? September
29. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH? December
30. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANY ONE?? Sweatshirt.. it was kold as hell on Saturday./
31. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW? No one has that much power!!!
32. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE? CNN, Food Network, and @ssWatcher.com (don’t judge me)33. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED? ** SHHHHHHH ** I cant tell you that either.
34. LAST PERSON THAT MADE YOU SAD? No one has that much power over me!
35. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? YES SIR!!!
36. FAVORITE TYPE OF DRINK? Water
37. FAVORITE FOOD? Crabs
38. FAVORITE PIE? Sweet Potato39. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE? Yes. 40. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? I don’t hate anyone…
41. DO YOU OWN A DIGITAL CAMERA? Yes
42. ARE YOU IN LOVE? No
AND YES I know there's no number 24, I didn't feel like changing the numbers, lol

It's morning...

2006-10-17T08:44:00.000-05:00

Good Morning ….

As I step out the house today … it was raining and the day seemed gloomed. But on the train to work, I thought to myself – “Don’t forget to blog”!!

I appreciate everyone’s comments on my new blog and hope that my thoughts are worthy of reading. Some one told me that this becomes addictive… well it ain’t sex and it ain’t a fine wine, but I will take them for their word and see what happens.

I am going to surf other bloggers site and grab a questionnaire to complete… and that will be my second blog. I may post a second one today just to get something off my mind … is it TOO MUCH to post twice a day?

* Enter *

PS: “Democrats are sexy... Cause who ever said they want a nice piece of elephant?

My initial introduction/post...

2006-10-16T09:12:00.000-05:00

Am I really here… what will I really say? Are my thoughts interesting enough to have you come back again? I am a private person who doesn’t share much, so this may be an ‘effort from hell’, but I promised that I would ‘try’. I aint all that into grammar... (I was a math major)!! SO if they mispelled or not in sync, oooops! **I am educated though..trust **

I go by several names… not cause I am hiding anything but just cause if I want you to figure me or it out, I will let ya know.

I wanna give shout out to other BLOGGERS that I met this weekend. I had a ball with you guys. Drinks, food, “Questions”, ‘I never ever,’ and “Truth or Dare”. WOW!!!

Aight… it’s Monday and I am at work. I am tired and mad my Redskins lost (again). Until Gibbs start to believe in black quarterbacks, I guess we will suffer for a while. I told the bloggers that I don’t read much and I skim A LOT, but I would put in the effort. To check out their sites and see what they ‘talkin bout’!!! I wonder if they will do the same?? I suppose there is one way to find out….

*Enter*

PS: “Life is gonna be there when you get there, so why you rushing?